Ups & Downs
Happy Summer friends !!
Life has truly been so crazy with graduation and starting a job and just all the things happening.
I first want to start this blog off with the fact that I have been feeling a lot of highs and lows in the past couple of months. Graduating college is scary, and no one prepares you for the anxiety you feel lol!! I think there is this pressure society puts on you to be extremely successful right when you graduate. You should have it all together, right?
I think the biggest thing that I have been struggling with is the fact that I thought I would have it all figured out by now. Let me break it to ya, I don’t think anyone ever feels like they have figured life out. But I always thought I would by now. I think I grew up with this mindset that “by 23 I will have all my shit together.” I will be happy and feel fulfilled and feel all the happy feelings. This is not true people!! I have just been reminding myself that life is all about learning and figuring yourself out. I will always be going through things, that is life!
I wanted to be honest in the fact that I have just been feeling off these past couple of months, and if that is you that is okay!! I am obviously not the biggest fan lol, but I do trust God and his path for me. I think we just need to take a deep breath and enjoy the time of life that we are in. Our brains can simply be too hard on ourselves. We must stop believing the lies and anxious thoughts our brain is telling us! I obviously have been loving life at this stage, but a lot of change and uncertainty also creep in sometimes. I was telling my therapist all about these life doubts I have, telling her I just hope this is God’s path. She said, “You know you are such a big believer in God but it really doesn’t seem like you have any faith in him and what he has in store for you and your life.” LOL. I was like welppppp YOU RIGHT!!
Psalm 20:7 says that many will trust in the world and the things it has to offer, but few will trust in God. My challenge for you today is to just put more trust in him and his plan for your life.
Speaking of my therapist she also said something to me the other day that just made me really think, and I wanted to share it with you. She asked me, “Where are you your happiest? Who are you with? What are all the vibes?” This really made me realize that my happy self is not in Nashville. My most confident, fun-loving, peaceful Justice is at the lake with my family in Michigan. There is something so peaceful about being with your person and the people you love with no worries. My therapist began to explain how it’s sad that I am not the happiest version of myself here in Nashville where I live! I explained wellllll there is just so much going on here in Nashville. Work is stressful, I am trying to be successful, have good grades, and have a social life and blah blah blah. There is a lot of pressure. I feel like I need to be doing something at all times when I am in Nashville. What if I started treating Nashville like the lake? Taking more time out of the day for me? Being around people that my soul feel happier. Doing things that I want to do!
I have spoken on this before, but I mostly am saying this because I need to also hear it. We are in control of our happiness. If I am being honest I have not been taking care of myself recently. I have just been so anxious about what my life Is going to look like and if I am doing all the right things in the right order, I have not been taking care of myself.
I encourage you to just realize how beautiful your life is. Lean into spending time with yourself. You get to wake up every morning and be a change in someone’s life. You personally have the ability to do that in someone’s life. You have the ability to make someone feel seen and beautiful. You have friends and family in your life that love you. You have so many wonderful opportunities in life for traveling and being successful. There is just so much to life. So when I start spiraling and freaking out a little inside, I hope I can remind myself of these same things.
Most importantly you have a God that is so in love with you and only wants you to be happy. He personally hand-made you… how freaking cool.
Every single day, we have two choices: we can simply react to everything happening around us, or we can take action and create the lives we want to live. Don’t give someone else the keys to your happiness!
